As many of my close friends/family know, ever since setting foot upon Los Angeles, I have had this eating problem. I like to call it Half Bulemic-- binging without the purging. I have many theories of why I exhibit such factors:
1. Oral stimulation (that's what he said!). I need to chew/crunch/masticate... weird, I know, I think it's a sensory issue. Maybe I need speech therapy.
2. No OFF switch. I get "full," but not really. I don't feel it anymore.
3. I have nothing else to spend my money on... everything I need I already have (or so I think).
4. It tastes so good. Food just tastes better here when you go to restaurants with **** or ***** star ratings and there is always something new to try.
5. I don't have have as many friends, therefore I have more time to eat? Okay, maybe that's just BS, because when I had a lot of friends at home, I would constantly eat out because of them.
6. When it comes to food, I have little to no self control. :<
I've gained 10+ lbs since moving here and counting. Last weekend when some friends came over from Salt Lake to visit, I gained an additional 5 lbs. This is totally getting out of hand!
I'm the heaviest that I have been in a long time. This month, I'm making a commitment! I'm going to lose 10 of the (at least) 15 lbs I have gained before I leave LA. Starting March 1, I have begun a food journal and exercised everyday (work exercises don't count). I have reduced the amount of fried, fat, and sugar I consume. This is a huge task for me because my biggest barrier is my lack of self control, and when I cave, I binge. Vicious cycle.
Day 3 and I'm already feeling optimistic. The past month has been horrific, especially on my self-esteem. I can't fit the pants/shorts I brought over from SLC. I got dragged down and lazy. My energy only lasted until the end of the work day. It was just getting to be too much.
Wish me luck, I want to get my beach bod ready for Hawaii... ;)
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